It has alwiz been my passion ...

It has been more than a year and 4 months since i joined this dept... truly n without doubt, this new job has taught me a lot of things... and truly mould a better person of me compare to before ... i actually did things i have not imagine before, the process of dealing n negotiating alwiz come into action ... eventhough at first i found it difficult, but as time goes by, alhamdullah Allah helps in many ways... However, i just could not forget teaching. it has alwiz been my passion. my friend alwiz encourage me to still do teaching as a part time job, however it may works for others but not me. Im not that person who can alwiz do two things in one time. im just an ordinary people who like to come back to house, relax and having sometime with myself... but, i could not pursue my dream as my postgraduate degree is yet to complete. and the policy of every ipta now is for lecturers to have at least masters degree, with the intention to continue for phd. with my current position now, i dont think i can manage to do phd. phd needs sacrifices of time and money as well. i love my job now, but i also would want to pursue for phd asap. im not getting younger,therefore i need to grab all opportunities as time move on very fast. but, leaving this job of course will hurt some people feelings, especially my mum n my dad. n of course, will effect me as well as ive gone through many things for the sake of this job. money is not the main focus here but its just an opportunity to get things i really love and have passion with... I pray to Allah that He will show us the rigjht way as only Allah knows the best for us. Amin.

Perjuangan Harus Terus!

Terkadang aku lalui jalan ini
kosong...kelam... tak berpenghuni
bisa sesat tanpa kompas dan peta
bisa hilang tanpa khabar berita
bisa kecewa tanpa teman bicara

terkadang kuharungi lautan itu
ombak besar menghalang jalanku
haiwan buas menanti alpaku
lanun pintar mengocak mindaku

selagi bergelar manusia
takkan sunyi tanpa halangan
takkan sepi tanpa cabaran
selagai nyawa dikandung jasad
usah letih berjuang
kerna janji Allah pasti datang!

Cuti-Cuti ke Bandung ... (part 1)

Assalamualaikum all bloggers,

Penat dan letih badan masih lg terasa. Maklumlah,baru sj blk dr bercuti ke Bandung, tahun lepas,hehehe. Percutian selama 4 hari 3 malam mmg satu pengalaman yang cukup menarik walaupun ni dah kali ketiga ke Bandung... kali ini, perjalanan aku ditemani oleh 3 orang rakan sekerjaku, Kak Aisah, Kak Sara and Azza...

Hari Pertama - 30 Dis 2010 (Khamis)

Kami bertolak pada 30 Dis dan pulang ke KL pd 2 Januari 2011 (setahun tuuuuu....:)) Kami naik MAS, sbb tiket air asia sgtla mhl sbb beli last minit. Walapun tiket MAS boleh beli 2 set tiket ke Bandung pergi-balik (kalau promosi), tp mmg puas ati naik MAS. Seat die lebih selesa, n boleh bwk beg 20 kg... makan pun ok... :)

(makanan dlm mas,gmbr aku cilok dr kak sha,hehehe)

Kami naik flight pkl 12.10pm, n touch down jam 1.10 pm di Bandung. Airport Bandung taklah terlalu besar mcm di Jakarta. Sampai jer kat tempat nk cop pasport, kami disambut anjing polis, agak comel gak muka dia tp yang kurang bestnye anjing tu asyik ulang-alik check and bau pelawat dekat 5-6 kali.stress la gak...hehehe. Rupanya, ada kes depa jumpa dadah baru2 ni di bandung, itu yang security agak strict skit...

pastu,kami menunggu supir (driver) dr Hotel ARLYA, hotel yg kami akan menginap di Bandung. Punyalah lama, katanya macet (jem). Dekat 45 minit gak menunggu supirnya... Kak Sara agk teruja sbb die first time g Bandung,hehehe...

pada sesapa yg nak tukar duit,elok la tkr kat mesia siap2... sbb lg murah, aku aritu tkr dpt RM350... tp kat Bandung,leh tkr gak la... yang bagusnya,dkt airport Bandung, leh tukar duit dgn rate yg agak ok berbanding kalau tukar di pekan bandung sendiri... 1 juta rupiah leh tukar dgn RM 365.00 agak ok la berbanding RM370-380 di pekan Bandung ... tp duit die banyak color, n banyak nilainya, jd aku slalu konpius, terutamanya 1000 dgn 10,000 rp....

So, pas jer tgu pak supir, terus kami ke hotel... jalan agak jem,jd lambt gak la sampai,agak2 dlm 45 mnt gak... Hotel kami mengadap sawah padi, ala2 pedalaman gitu... view depan agk nice juge,ratenye tak brapa nk mhl, sebilik 320,000 rp ( dlm RM 112)... cuma takda lift, kena naik tangga, dan bilik die tak semua ada bath tub. bilik aku n kak sha dpt standing shower... aircon kureng sejuk skit,n basic amenities mcm hair dryer takda, iron (satu je tp rosak), telefon tak leh col dr blk ke blk, tuala kecil (msm tuala kepala) and view bilik tak best,tak nmpk pape... tp blk die agak bersih gak la,mungkin taraf 1 or 2 bintang ... cuma,agak jauh dr tmpt shoping, spt Pasar Baru and Factory Outlet, jd agak kurang sesuai utk anda2 yg suka soping n nak g jalan2 .... tp kalau dr segi bajet, agak murahla hotel ni... pekerja hotel pun rajin angkat barang2 kami jd tak letih sgt nk mengangkut barang... breakfast pagi pun ok juge, tk bnyk menu, tp layan jer .... deco tmpt mkn dia agak nice ... :)

Ok,itulah hotel kami, htl Arlya. aku tak smpt nk snap gmbr dlm biliknya sbb lebih teruja nak g mengorbankan duit aku ke tmpt soping,hehehe.... sampai jer htl, aku slt n siap2 n terus g Ciwalk (cihampelas) beli jeans. dr htl ke ciwalk pun dlm sengah jam, so bazir masa... kami sewa keta dgn ZAFIRACAR.COM.... agensi supir plg mantap di Bandung... aku mmg suggest sapa2 nk g,gunalah khidmat depa ni. sgt bgs, supir (driver) kami pun gila2 gak orangnya, Bapak Ari Wibowo nama dia... suka wat lwk n tak letih lyn permintaan kami (especiallly Kak Sha,hehehe) ...
Korang boleh berhubung dgn bos dia, Pak Tam, aritu kami byr RM595 jer utk 4 hari 3 mlm... (lebih kurang 1 j 700 ribu) semua skali... tol,upah supir, bensin (petrol).... mmg sng... die pun kalau mkn kat mana2 die dpt free.... so kami tak pyh byr mkn dia lagi ... :)

OK,sambung blk Cihampelas... kami sampai Ciwalk dh ptg, so smpt la grab satu jeans and kemeja utk adik aku. murah gak la kat sini,sng gak nk cari saiz ... tp,ramai la org...naik sesak aku

(wif kak sha di ciwalk mall)
pastu,kami g Ciwalk mall...mmg eksklusif mcm Maju Junction jer... aku tak beli apape,just window jer sbb aku dh fks nk g soping kat pasar baru esoknye... kak sha smpt beli t-shirt unik utk anak2 die ... murah gak regenya...

pastu,kami smpt jmp Pak Dony, pegawai KOMINFO yang penah dtg Mesia, die belanja kami mkn nasi bakar n ayam madu kat restoran NASI BAKAR CIMANDIRI... ayam die boleh tahan tp tempat die aku kureeeng menawan skit mata memandang ... tp sbb org blanje eku redha jer,hehehe

nasi bakar, ayam panggang madu..

Pastu, Pak Dony terus anta kami blk sbb FO dh kebanyakkannya ttp.depa kul 9pm dh blk... so, on d way nk blk,kami sempat sgh INDOMARET (mcm 7 eleven) beli air mineral n brg2 dpr ... jgn tekezut yer sbb aku beli 1 btl Kicap manis die, namanya BANGO... sdp giler kicap 2,cmpr dgn cilipadi,perah asam limau n mmg layan kalau cicah dgn ikan grg n nasi panas...fuhhhh! regenya cuma 4,500 (rm1.58) jer... pastu aku beli gak coklat spread die,sbb sggggggggggt murah, dlm RM 2 jer,leh mkn dgn aiskrim,roti etc...

(kicap bango febret aku di bandung ngan ceklat toping,sgt mrh berbanding mesia!)
dpn IndoMaret,kami nmpk satu stall,jual MARTABAK MANIS. Aku ingat murtabak mcm mesia, rupanya apam balik maaa.... cuma,ada mcm2 perasa,dn aku teruja nk mkn yg ada coklat sbb aku hantu ceklat ..... :) hargenye mhl gak,dlm 20,000 (RM7) tp sbb ceklat punye psl,aku beli gak 1, coklat + kismis. pelik kan? tp mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmg sedap bangat! Kak sha ambil kismis + kacang, sara n azza plak ambik coklat +kacang ...

ha,ini martabak manis a.k.a apam balik aku! Coklat rice + kismis =19000 rp (RM7) jer!

memulanya,aku ingat kecik jer apam baliknye,rupenya,mak ai,yg besar punye beb! terbeliak jap bijik mata aku biler tgk saiznya yg boleh mkn satu famili!!! ptt la pak dony gelak jer kat kitaorg beli kami beli sebijik sorang,agaknye mesti die fikir dlm hati die,bdk2 ni tak kenyang g kot...hahaha
tp,aku salute btl sama penjual apam tu...ya Allah, korang ppt tgk cara pembuatannya. apamnye tebal giler,kalah mesia... pastu,first layer die taruh satu sudu besar mentega,yg aku rasa 1 sudu tu mcm 3 sudu besar!!!! pastu die punya kismis,masyaAllah.... mcm sekotak kecik kot dia taruh! pastu last skali,die letak coklat rice yg sgt bnyk smpai aku hmpir pitam! dan die letak susu gak kat atasnya.... kami sgt kagum smpai smpt aku snap few gambar utk menerangkan keterujaan aku ...... danla tu, pas die bubuh semua tu, dia sapu lg mentega kat kulir luar,mmg boleh gemukssssss la!

blk jer htl,aku n kak sha mkn smbl ketawa tak berenti .... mengenangkan nasib apam yg tak mgkn kami habiskan .... sambil kuar air mata gelak tk thn tgk perangai kami yg beli apam mcm sehari tak mkn .... tp,serius, korang mmg ptt rasa,sedap woooo!!!

mmg ,kat Bandung ni,mmg bnyk makanan sdp.... ada lagi aku nk story,tp aku nk stop dulu sbb bos aku dh pgl aku wat keje.... :) korang nk tau lg apa yg aku mkn utk hari ke-2 n 3? kat mana tempat mkn best kan bandung? ha, tunggu part 2 k!

Its almost a year now ...

Salam to all ...

Its almost a year since i joined dept. of info. Its a tottaly a new world 4 me, as i started fresh and vibrant again. D feeling as junior still aroused me on my first day, first week, first month and now first year in service. d fact that im still new and need to learn a lot.

Allah has written d fate that im belong here. this is a long journey for me, for at least 25 to 30 years ahead. i will utilize half of my life by serving this dept. sometimes i just wonder, can i do this?

the challenges r many, not enough time 4 me 2 mention. but i think, my biggest threat is myself. i realize that i can be so motivated at one time, where it can reach d sky, as sky is d limit. but, it can be d other way around. t4, sometimes im confused ...

this is what i want or this is what i need? it riddles me somehow ...

but, i believe and have to belive that Allah gives us things which we need, not what we want. because sometimes the thing that we want is not d best for us, as it may turn out to be a bad thing. but a thing which is not necessarily what we expected, it can shape us to be a better person, a better friend, a better boss, a better child, a better muslim ...

still, i cannot help myself by forgetting teaching. being a lecturer is always my passion, till death. u know, i alwiz had dreams on teaching my students, really teaching them until i felt satisfied. its d passion that i really feel d achievements d most, n im going 2 miss it alwiz ...

of course im happier now, but i alwiz miss that moments ...

Kemana menghilangnya diriku?

Kemana menghilangnya diriku?

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atau diriku alpa yang perlu disedari

kemana diriku yang sebenar pergi
mudah lupa bila dimewahi
mudah alpa bila disanjungi
mudah kalah bila dicabari
mudah tewas bila dipermain
mudah lemah bila disakiti

kemana diriku yang sebenar pergi
yang tak bisa sakit bila disakiti
tak mudah kalah bila ditewaskan
tak mudah marah bila diprovokasikan
tak mudah lemah bila disusahkan

kemana diriku yang sebenar pergi
bagai mencari matahari di waktu malam
sukarnya bagai menunggu bulan di waktu siang
pelik tapi benar!
adakalanya diriku bagai sembunyi
sembunyi dari diriku sendiri

My beloved 2009

( a letter to 2009)

To my beloved 2009,

in less than 4 days, i'll be leaving you behind. i regret that i never notice how important u were in my life. i think ive wasted u a lot, 2009 in which there were moments that i should not let you go just like that...

Dear 2009,

i planned a lot of thing with u, together we plan and set our dreams,but some dreams remain dreams dear... i wish i could turn back d time 2009,but im sorry i couldnt. im sorry when our goal remain a goal that was pasted in the room wall. im sorry for not takin the extra initiative to make it done dear 2009...

however, 2009, u hv helped me to get something that i really wanted before, u make me did something that i could not imagine i could do it before, u make me to become a stronger person that 2008...

dear 2009,

i will not meet u again in 4 days in advance. let our sweet memories remain a wonderful experience that i can used it with my new love 2010, eventhough we will not meet again but surely i will alwiz remember u 2009 deep down in my heart.

thank you 2009 for making me a better person :)

and 2010,let set our goal together and lets achieve 2009 goals!

yours sincerely,

wafa 1982-2009...

Citer lame - Second phase of PTD assessment - PAC

Salam semua,

Saja nak post semula kenangan lama masa g try nasib nk jd PTD. Tp, bukan rezekiku. Aku syukur juga sbb aku lebih suke jd peg. penerangan ! :)

27 jun 2009 rasenye, aku telah berjaya dipanggil untuk mengikuti assessment kedua ptd di INTAN Kedah, area sungai petani. Agak berdebar gak la sebab nie first time aku g level 2 punye assessment, selama nie g buat exam jer. So, aku ade la baca skit dr blog org lain pengalaman depa dlm assesment kedua nie cos its quite different from the previous pac. kali ni punye pac cume sehari tak mcm dulu,3 hari. so of course,ade banyak program sebelum ni ditiadakan dan ada gak yg baru diperkenalkan.



so,bile aku sampi jer dlm kul 7.40am, dh ramai betul org beratur. aku tak taula yg lain2 2 sampai kul bape,agaknye yg sampai kul 6 pun ade! fuh,semangat tul depa nk jd ptd. so,first thing we all kene beratur untuk registration and hantar form apa2 yg patut.sambil2 berdiri aku ade gak la sembang2 ngan calon2 lain. majoriti yg dtg first time, n tak tau ape nk expect dr PAC nie. ade gak yg kata kalu pakai kot dpt extra mark,tp sepanjang program ni kami telah diingatkan utk tak pakai kot or tag nama (bagi kakitangan awam) untuk elakkan bias. yelah,kalu aku tau,aku pun nk bwk kot gak.



pas register,aku masuk dlm dewan dan dipanggil ikut nombor untuk ambil gambar. mcm banduan pun ade gak,hahaha. dh la nombor 2 besar giler,dr jauh pun leh nmpk. Nombor aku 58, harapnye bertuahla ek.



so,abis bergambar,kami diajak minum pagi,tp sepuluh minit jer. aku tak lalu nk mkn,aku minum jer n rata2 yg lain pun mcm 2 gak.semua mcm punctual jer,hehehe. then,ade pegawai die bg penerangan tentang sistem baru ptd,so agak payahla sikit bermula tahun ni (2009).



nie step2 baru nk jd ptd:

1. exam ptd

2. pra pac (yg sedang aku buat ni) - sehari jer

3. interview

4. if berjaya - masuk dlm perkhidmatan as kontrak (FIRST YEAR)

5. if ok - masuk jabatan lain plak (SECOND YEAR)

6. PAC sebenar - dlm thn kedua berkhidmat (3HARI)

7. INTAN - setahun

8. lulus INTAN - full time PTD!



ha,dh lepas g INTAN, barulah boleh confirm. so,memang agak mencabar dan susah pemilihan ptd kali ni. aku tak sure leh berjaya or tak,tetapi harapan masih aku simpan skit.



so after that, bermulalah aktiviti pertama and kedua. aktiviti pertama, dinamakan, intelectual discourse, berbincang dlm kumpulan untuk 1 topik dlm english. aku suka gak bende nie,sebab suke bg pendapat. topik yg dibagi ialah 'Quality of Sports Today'.



selepas 1 jam, g bilik lain plak untuk aktiviti kedua. so,kali ni,namanya 'Hujah'. so,kene berdebat tentang 1 topik, iaitu: 'Blog pemangkin perkembangan intelek' . kumpulan aku kene bab pencadang,agk susah gk nk sokong tajuk ni,tp aku belasah jer,mcm aku yg betul,heheheh.



then,mkn time! aku tk mkn banyak2 sebab pas nie aku tau azab akn bermule....



then,seperti yg aku jgka, tukar sport attire n g pdg. nasib baik cuaca tak terlalu panas sgt,leh pengsan gak if betul2 panas. so,first activity, kene susun 9 pinggan n jadikan dalam sepuluh barisan dgn syarat setiap barisan ade 3 pinggan. so,agk penin gk la,aku rase aku tak menyumbang sgt dlm aktiviti ni sebab aku dh penat kene hentam mase hujah td.



pas 2, ade aktiviti senirobik,hehehe bukan arobik k. kene buat senaman berdesarkan lagu n buat ramai2. kene buat sama kalu tak tolak markah. tp,aku nasihatkan,tak payah beria2 sgt dlm aktiviti ni sebab cabaran sebenar adalah pas nie....



ha,senaman mase sek men,memang best kan? tp,agk tak best biler dh tue skit nie. 4 jenis senaman yg kami buat, first jumping jack,30 kali. mcm sikit kan,tp korang trylah dulu,baru tau sakitnye,hehehe. yang kedua, star jump,20 kali. pumping,20 kali, n lari mcm ulang alik 3 kali. memang penat tuhan jer tau,sebab dh lama tak buat. tangan aku lenguh gak la dlm 3 hari.tp sonok sgt sebab tak sangka aku leh buat selepas sekian lama.


walaupun aku tak bejaye,tp dpt gak la aku spent time ngan mak and adik2 aku kat sg petani,ngeh ngeh ... :)